"hot tears rolled down my cheeks onto the top of elias' newborn head. i held him tight and didn't want to let him go, i felt an overwhelming amount of protection for him. my love and acceptance of him was not a question. but there was something else i was having a hard time accepting.
one of the first heartbreaking thoughts to enter my mind when i found out elias had down syndrome was that i wouldn't be able to have any more children. i assumed that he would take up most of my time, and it wouldn't be fair for my attention to be given to other children. i wanted what was best for him, but i was sad to think that my dream of having a big family was put to an abrupt stop.
i don't remember who it was. but i do remember feeling relieved when someone told me that the best thing for elias would be family. they said, "the more interaction and love, the better!"
and they were right. elias has fallen in love with his big brother and wants to be just like him. and he can't go five minutes without noticing that pia needs a kiss and to be told where her eyes are.
i have learned something very important about elias. he doesn't want our life to be any different because of him, he just wants to be a part of it. he wants to be loved. he wants to enjoy life and the people in it.
sure, elias has down syndrome, but things really aren't as different as i thought they would be.
and for you, as you peer from the outside looking in...just remember, people like elias just want to be loved and accepted. they enjoy life just as much as you!"
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